And then what???

In exactly two months will be my last day of work here. And then what???
I have no idea. I'm starting to panic a little. Yesterday, one of my RAs from last year stopped by for the night. It was so nice to catch up. I hadn't seen her since she moved out of our building last year, the day after graduation. It's not that we didn't want to get together; it just never worked out. And now - in just two months - I'm leaving the country and I'm not sure when I'll be back and where I'll be. We talked about wanting to meet up again before I leave. And I really really want to. But there are so many people I want to see before I leave and there's only two months left - and two months that will be filled with work.

I'm not good at saying goodbye. But in Student Affairs, that's what we do. Every year, some of our students graduate and move on. And it's exciting to see them go out in the world and make a difference. But it's sad to see them leave, knowing that you won't be able to just walk down the hall to see them, knowing that as much as you'll try to stay in touch it will never be the same. And every few years, we move - especially at the beginning of our careers. And then we have to say goodbye to everyone, students, colleagues, friends.

I really don't like saying goodbye.

But even more than saying goodbye, I hate the not-knowing. Not knowing what job I'll have next year, not knowing where I'll be. How are you supposed to make plans for the future when you don't know what you'll be doing or even what country you'll be in? And we all know I like making plans. ;)